Holding back

If I am completely honest with myself, I can honestly say that I am a big liar. I lie about my strength, abilities, comforts, security, and stability. I don't say "No" nearly as much as I should. I am a very complex chameleon that doesn't like drama, upsetting people, or rippling the pool but does … Continue reading Holding back

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Light as Air

The freedom revealed in moments of clarity are fleeting. I know that as soon as I find that moment of peace free of the lists and the responsibilities of my transition, I will begin to worry. Why is it that insecurity stalks our peaceful moments and leaves us breathless in fear? I sometimes imagine that … Continue reading Light as Air

The Farce of Contemporary Hip-Hop

Contemporary hip-hop is as fake as a square two-cent penny and everyone is trying to spend that crap on a Furby. I don't listen to the radio anymore. I hate hearing the lyrics so simple, vulgar, and pointless that either have the words are censored or a two-year old can sing the entire song like … Continue reading The Farce of Contemporary Hip-Hop

Collaboration

I like being in charge, but I will gladly relinquish control of a situation to someone capable of making it work. Most importantly, I will relinquish control to a higher power. Lately, I haven't been as close to God as I want to be. I haven't relinquished control out of want and desire.  I established … Continue reading Collaboration

Southern Comfort

Unless preoccupied in the thoughts of my dream world, I always greet people with a smile. I was raised that way. Regardless of how society feels about salutations and respect, I say Ma'am and Sir. There is always room in the inn and food in the fridge. I was raised by a very hospitable family. I … Continue reading Southern Comfort

Crowing Achievement, I want…

I don't want this to be the end. I don't even want this to be the ne plus ultra of my ability. So here I am bearing my deepest want. Here I am paint-stripper scraping the basement of my soul and telling you, the reading world, what I want. I don't want. I don't want … Continue reading Crowing Achievement, I want…

Inside My Head, a Maze

From the moment that I wake to the second that I fall asleep, I have traversed the corners of my mind and lost myself in its maze. Much like my grand and well-planned ideas, I try to begin with some pattern of order. For example, I had a dream that instantly gave me the idea … Continue reading Inside My Head, a Maze

Childhood Memories

Cotton candy. I can remember going to the carnival and waiting in line. The air was always sweet from the sugar of the cotton candy machine and salty from the popcorn machine. My mouth watering, I was gloriously juxtaposed between the two alluring treats. First, it was always the cotton candy. I loved pinching off … Continue reading Childhood Memories

Pursue

On yesterday, I shared my grief at the loss of something that I really wanted. To say that I was devastated would be like saying the Amazon is a bubbling brook or the Pacific Ocean is a teardrop.  I was severely more than just devastated.  It felt as if the world continued to move and … Continue reading Pursue