Holding back

If I am completely honest with myself, I can honestly say that I am a big liar. I lie about my strength, abilities, comforts, security, and stability. I don't say "No" nearly as much as I should. I am a very complex chameleon that doesn't like drama, upsetting people, or rippling the pool but does … Continue reading Holding back

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THIS is my year…

It seems that each year I give myself some feeble pep talk to convince myself that THIS will be the year. In fact, that's why I love January 1. I always feel confident that I will succeed in all that I ask of myself THIS year. THIS time will be different. I know because I … Continue reading THIS is my year…

The Farce of Contemporary Hip-Hop

Contemporary hip-hop is as fake as a square two-cent penny and everyone is trying to spend that crap on a Furby. I don't listen to the radio anymore. I hate hearing the lyrics so simple, vulgar, and pointless that either have the words are censored or a two-year old can sing the entire song like … Continue reading The Farce of Contemporary Hip-Hop

A new beginning

Beginnings are frightening.  Gloriously, joyfully, frightening. A little over a week ago, I wrote about how hope is temporary. (Link posted below.) Well, here's an update. I have my new beginning. I am venturing out into the great unknown. I am at the precipice of one path and preparing to jump the Great Divide. I … Continue reading A new beginning

Writing Calms the Qualm

Sometimes I want to just be free of responsibilities, duties, obligations, and worries. I want to feel light and airy, I want to be a souffle. I want to rise every day and be free to meditate, simmer and stew in my own thoughts and daydreams. I get my best ideas from my daydreams. Remember that … Continue reading Writing Calms the Qualm

Collaboration

I like being in charge, but I will gladly relinquish control of a situation to someone capable of making it work. Most importantly, I will relinquish control to a higher power. Lately, I haven't been as close to God as I want to be. I haven't relinquished control out of want and desire.  I established … Continue reading Collaboration

Crowing Achievement, I want…

I don't want this to be the end. I don't even want this to be the ne plus ultra of my ability. So here I am bearing my deepest want. Here I am paint-stripper scraping the basement of my soul and telling you, the reading world, what I want. I don't want. I don't want … Continue reading Crowing Achievement, I want…

Inside My Head, a Maze

From the moment that I wake to the second that I fall asleep, I have traversed the corners of my mind and lost myself in its maze. Much like my grand and well-planned ideas, I try to begin with some pattern of order. For example, I had a dream that instantly gave me the idea … Continue reading Inside My Head, a Maze